Κι εσυ να λειπεις

… η πολιτεια… τοσο θετικη σαν μεταφυσικη

που μπορεις επιτελους να πιστεψεις

πως υπαρχεις και δεν υπαρχεις

Requiem for a life?

In front of a bar

at a hostile city.

Glacial movement of their souls.

Still strangers, after 15 years.

Not Rita

Το ονομα της δεν ειναι Ριτα.

Δεν εχει χασει τον συντροφο της.

Δεν νιωθει να κινδυνευει απο τιποτε.

Δεν βρισκεται καν στην εικονα.

Η φωτογραφια της εχει προστεθει μπροστα απο αυτην του σπιτιου.

Σαν να μην υπηρξε ποτε.

Angels in fast motion

First you have the oral phase,
then the anal phase
and then the banal phase, right?

First you think
you're a very special individual.
You're different, more profound,
more spiritual than other people.

Then comes the banal phase.
Once you've lived that, you know
that you're no fucking better than
anybody else. You're expendable.
You're quite ordinary. You'll die,
you'll be buried, eaten by worms
be forgotten by posterity
like all other mortals out there.

Once you know that,
you've grown up.

Malady #5

The room by RadicalP

She opens her eyes, says:

stop lying.

She says she hopes she'll never know anything,

anything the way you do.

She says: I don't want to know

anything the way you do,

with that death-derived certainty,

that hopeless monotony,

the same every day of your life,

every night, and that deadly

routine of lovelessness.

All you remember of the whole affair

are certain words she said in her sleep,

the ones that tell you what's wrong with you:

the malady of death.

Soon you give up, don't look for her anymore,

either in the town or at night or in the daytime.

Even so you have managed to live that love

in the only way possible for you.

Losing it before it happened.

Malady #4

1000 by LittleSilverBones

You say: you must be very beautiful.

She says: I'm here right in front of you.

Look for yourself.

You say: I can't see anything.

She says: Try. It's all part of the bargain.

You take hold of the body and

look at its different areas.

You turn it round, keep turning it round.

Look at it, keep looking at it.

Then you give up.

Give up. Stop touching it.

You go on talking, all alone in the world,

just as you wish.

You say love has always struck you

as out of place, you've never understood,

you've always avoided loving, 

always wanted to be free not to.

You say you're lost.

But that you don't know

what you're lost to.

Or in.

Malady #3

.. by EmilyaManole

Night after night you enter the dark of her sex,

almost unwittingly take that blind way.

Sometimes you stay there; 

sleep there, inside her,

all night long,

so as to be ready if ever,

through some involuntary movement on her part

or yours,

you should feel like taking her again,

filling her again, 

taking pleasure in her again.

But only with a pleasure,

as always, blinded by tears.

She'd always be ready,

willing or no.

That's just what you'll never know.

She's more mysterious than any other

external thing you've ever known.

Nor will you, or anyone else,

ever know how she sees,

how she thinks,

either of the world or of you,

of your body or your mind,

or of the malady she says

you suffer from.

She doesn't know herself.

She couldn't tell you.

You couldn't find out anything about it from her.

Malady #2

Schizophrenia by GrandeObre

One evening you do it,

as arranged, 

you sleep with your face between her parted legs,

up against her sex,

already in the moistness of her body,

where she opens.

She offers no resistance.

She opens her eyes and says:

what joy.

You put your hand over her mouth

to silence her.

Tell her one doesn't say such things.

She shuts her eyes.

Says she won't say it again.

She asks if they talk about it.

You say no.

She asks what they do talk about.

You say they talk about everything else.

Everything except that.

She laughs and goes back to sleep.

Malady #1

Living with ghosts by GrandeObre

You say she must not speak,

like the women of her ancestors,

must yield completely to you

and to your will,

be entirely submissive like peasant women

in the barns after the harvest 

when they're exhausted

and let the men come to them

while they're asleep.

Then one night she does. She speaks.

She asks if she's managing to make your body less lonely.

You say you can't really understand the word

as applied to you.

That you can't distinguish between 

thinking you're lonely

and actually becoming lonely.

Colourless loneliness

Αρχισε να βρισκει τις πηγες των συναισθηματων του,
ν'ανακαλυπτει την ιεραρχια τους.
Μπορουσε να επιστρεφει στην παιδικη του ηλικια
και να προσδιοριζει το χρονο που
μια στιγμιαια εκρηξη συνεβει
σ'ενα απειροελαχιστο σημειο του εγκεφαλου του.

Τον κατηγορουσαν οτι καταστρεφει κατι αυθεντικο.
Αυτος ηταν ομως, ο μονος τροπος για να επιβιωσει
στην παρανοια της υπαρξης του.

Να ξεθαψει απο μεσα του κομματια,
να τα αποσυνθεσει
κι αφου κατανοησει τον τροπο που συνδεονται
στο χωρο και το χρονο
να τα τοποθετησει και παλι
σε τυχαια σειρα.

About colourless loneliness by himsouls

Her name is Marla

Ειναι μια ιστορια που θελω να σου πω.

Γνωρισα αυτο τον γερο ναυτικο 

που μιλουσε για μια γυναικα.

Την ειχε τυλιξει στα χαρτινα χερια του δυο φορες.

Οσες ειχε περασει απο το βρωμικο λιμανι της.

Υστερα ταξιδεψε σε μερη υγρα και τροπικα, 

ξηρα και παγωμενα.

Μεχρι που ξεβραστηκε ξανα στο ιδιο μερος 

στους λασπωμενους δρομους που οδηγουν 

στις παραγκες των κοινων γυναικων.

Περπατουσε γρηγορα περνωντας μεσα απο

μεγαλες λιμνες 

ψιθυριζοντας το ονομα που της ειχε πλασει

μεσα στο μυαλο του.

Her name is Marla...

Rachel Querrien

La maladie de la mort

Sightless

- Do you believe in fate?

-You mean the predetermined flow of events?
I certainly do, in my own framework.
If everything was programmed, let's break the code now.

I give you two options, the most extreme ones:
live or die, now.
Both depend on chances, on conditions.
You just want to call it fate or destiny.

I've visited the devil himself once.
Has he changed my, what you call, fate?
Don't think so.
I've confronted death several times... intentionally.
Not for "fun".
May be I was looking for it.
Just exploring.

They say it was always my lucky star.
I'm fucking sick of my lucky star.
It confines me in this little spot.

Sightless by j3ssko

Collage

... κι ενα εργαλειο εκρατησε μοναχα, ναυτικο
τ' οργανο εκεινο που μετραν τον ηλιο, τον εξαντα.

Η στενοχωρια και το αλκοολ δουλευοντας σιγα,
μερα τη μερα σ' ενα χαινον χασμα τον ωθουσαν.
Τρελαθηκε. Τον πειραζαν στους δρομους τα παιδια,
κι οι ψειρες πανω στα ξανθα του γενια επερπατουσαν.

Παντα βασιλευε σιγη θανατερη εκει μεσα
και περπατουσαμε ολοι μας στις μυτες των ποδιων,
κι ηταν στιγμες που νομιζες πως ακουες να χτυπουνε
σαν το ρολοι, μες στη σιγη, οι χτυποι των καρδιων.

Γελας, μα εγω σε πουλησα στο Ριο για δυο σενταβος
κι απε σε ξανα αγορασα ακριβα στη Βηρυτο.

Με πορφυρο στα χειλη μου κοχυλι σε προσταζω.
Στο χερι το γερακι σου και τα σκυλια λυτα.
Απανωθε μου σκουπισε τη θαλασσα που σταζω
και μαθε με να περπατω πανω στη γη σωστα.

Οταν πιστευω θαλασσα μοναχα και βυθο
και προσκυναω για εικονισμα εναν παλιο αστρολαβο
πες μου, στην αγια πιστη σου, πως να προσευχηθω;
σε ποιον να εξομολογηθω και που να μεταλαβω;

Το επιχρισμα. Η αγια σκουρια που μας γεννα,
μας τρεφει, τρεφεται απο μας, και μας σκοτωνει.

Γιατι μπερδευω τουτη εδω με μια αλλη ιστορια;
Ειναι ενα χερι που ποναει, βαρυ και λαβωμενο.
Βλεπω συχνα στον υπνο μου ενα ασπρο καρχαρια
με περιμενει νηστικος ή εγω τον περιμενω;

Tracey fragments

When a horse falls, foam comes out of its mouth.

When it falls, the legs of the horse thrash

and the horse is no good, so somebody shoots it.

The horse turns into glue.

A machine puts the glue into bottles

and children squeeze the bottles to get

the glue out and stick bits of paper on to cards.

Glue gets on the children's hands

and the children eat the glue

and the children become the horse.

Angel by Mimizu

Mirror

Alone in the whole world.

More daring and lighter than a bird

down the stairs, like a dizzy apparition,

you came to take me on your road,

through rain-soaked lilacs,

to your own possession,

to the looking glass world.

As night descended

I was blessed with grace,

the altar gate opened up,

and in the darkness shining

slowly reclining 

was your body naked.

You held a sphere in your palm, of crystal;

on your throne you were sleeping calm.

Belonging only to me,

you woke and at once transformed

the language humans speak and think.

Speech rushed up sonorously formed,

with the word "you" so much reformed

as to evolved a new sense meaning king.

And suddenly all changed,

like in a trance,

even trivial things, so often used and tried,

when standing between us, guarding us,

was water, solid, stratified.

It carried us, I don't know where.

Retreating before us,

like some mirage,

were cities, miraculously fair...

Behind us, our fate was groping,

like an insane man with a razor in his hand.

I dreamed this dream and I still dream of it

I dreamed this dream and I still dream of it

and I will dream of it sometime again.

Everything repeats itself and everything will be reincarnated,

and my dreams will be your dreams.

There, to one side of us, to one side of the world

wave after wave breaks on the shore:

there's a star on the wave, and a man, and a bird,

reality and dreams and death - wave after wave.

Dates are irrelevant. I was, I am, I will be.

Life is a miracle of miracles, and I kneel

before the miracle alone like an orphan,

alone in the mirrors, enclosed in reflections,

seas and towns, shining brightly through the smoke.

A mother cries and takes her baby on her knee.

Arseny Tarkovsky

Isolation

Ειναι ερωτευμενος με ενα ζευγαρι
που ειναι ερωτευμενο με αυτο που ηταν στο παρελθον.
Η αναμονη, η διψα πριν την επανενωση.
Τον περιμενε παντα κοκκινη,
λαμπερη.

Μελετουσε τη μαθηματικη εξαρτηση της ομορφιας με το χρονο.
Τα αποτελεσματα του ηταν τρομακτικα
για ολοκληρο το ανθρωπινο γενος.

duchu by Sikorzewska

Σε χρονο αφηρημενο

Θα πληρωσει για κατι που ηδη του ανηκει.
Αμφιβιος ξανα.
Μεσα σε αμνιακο σακο.

Το προσωπο αλλαζει και παλι.
Μην τρομαζεις.
Οχι εσωτερικα.
Παραμορφωνεται εξωτερικα.

Ablutophobia by MJ89

ΚΘ/Θ/ΒΩΩΕ

Αδυνατουσε να καταλαβει την ποιηση

τη λογικη, την επιστημη.

Απλα τοποθετουσε λεξεις σε τυχαια σειρα.

Συντομα δε θα τις χρειαζοταν ουτε αυτες.

... να κεντα τον κοσμο ετουτο

... το χωμα μονο εχει εχθρο

... ο ηλιος να μη βγει

... ηταν ψευτικος μπορει

... πως να δικασω μια ζωη

Strings by The Nun

The Reader-Part Three

The tectonic layers of our lives rest so tightly

one on top of the other that we always come up

against earlier events in later ones,

not as matter that has been fully formed

and pushed aside,

but absolutely present and alive.

Heaven and Earth by Muse

The Reader-Part Two

... in a cell she was out of my world, out of my life.

I wanted her far away from me,

so unattainable that she could continue

as the mere memory she had become 

and remained all these years...

In every part of my life, too,

I stood outside myself and watched;

I saw myself functioning at the university,

with my parents and brother and sister and my friends,

but inwardly I felt no involvement.

Escape by Citylives

The Reader-Part Two

But at a certain point the memory of her stopped accompanying me wherever I went.

She stayed behind,

the way a city stays behind 

as a train pulls out of the station.

It's there, somewhere behind you,

and you could go back and make sure of it.

But why should you?

Katrin in despair by Suo-me

The Reader-Part One

When we open ourselves
you yourself to me and I myself to you,
when we submerge
you into me and I into you
when we vanish
into me you and into you I

Then

am I me

and you are you

Through the lens by Alixrk

The Reader-Part One

It was more as if she had withdrawn into her own body,
and left it to itself and its own quiet rhythms,
unbothered by any input from her mind,
oblivious to the outside world.

... she was slowflowing, graceful, seductive
... an invitation to forget the world
in the recesses of the body.

Hoodie by Alixrk